Okay. I'm guilty. My clinical diagnosis is JOCD (Jayhawk Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder).
I grew up a JOCK... and I transformed into a JOCD!
On this bright, sunny, beautiful spring day, I should be outside, fondling cherry blossoms. But instead, I'm in my dark, gloomy inside office, hacking away on a computer screen, same as I did a few months ago when we were interior-bound due to arctic cold and ice.
I can't seem to wash this season off my hands enough. I keep washing and washing, but I'm not getting clean from it!
I feel like I can let this out to all of you... since I'm guessing many of you fall into the same category as me. Let's just call this thread "therapy."
I've been looking back at our recent loss... and then the reactions we had in here. Some of us were downright brutal, making almost everyone associated with this team a target. Self... of course it was his fault! Tharpe... boot his rear off the team! Ellis... can't hold his own when it counts! Wiggins... didn't care because Lawrence was just a rest stop on the way to the league! Embiid... was he really hurt so bad he couldn't play?!
I wonder if there is a relationship between having JOCD and axe-grinding after a sour March Madness?
This year's sour ending can not compare to some of our past sour endings. But I think I had more rotten fruit to throw than in previous years. Why is that? Could it be that I fell deeper into the pit of JOCD'ingdom?!
I am starting to come back as a human again. Gardening is my therapy out from a bad March. It is working. Watching my little buddies grow into monstrous veggie producers is quite something to experience. They count on me to help them grow to maturity.
I know my plants are all about having healthy roots. So what is at the root of my anger after we flubbed up against Stanford?
I thought about this in depth yesterday, as I watered my eggplants. And I asked them for guidance, and strangely enough, they gave me some answers.
The more I get involved with Jayhawk basketball, the more I have invested... body, mind and soul. So I expect everyone associated with Jayhawk basketball to at least have as much of a level of commitment as I have. That doesn't seem too much to ask, especially since I'm not drawing a fat check or getting my room/board/education paid for by the university. I'm not out there executing on behalf of the university (although I wear university gear out in public all the time.. so maybe I am).
I'm pretty sure the problem exists in perception. I see things on the tube, or read things online, and then I judge if the accused is being committed enough to Jayhawk basketball. I feel like if it was I who wore the Kansas jersey on the court, I'd spend every breathing second practicing FTs and studying videotape of my next opponent. Yes... that would be me. At least... that would be me TODAY! Because TODAY I am an old man who if I suddenly was wearing that jersey on the court, would only get there through some act from God. My eligibility is all used up and my knees wouldn't hold up one time at full speed. My skills would do more to help our opponents than add to a Jayhawk victory. So, naturally, an honor of representing my alma mater TODAY would keep me motivated to work 24/7 on doing the best job I can. Us old timers know what "working around the clock" is all about.
So I get all bent out of shape because I don't feel like everyone connected to Jayhawk basketball is matching my level of commitment. But am I being realistic? No. No, I'm not!
First, let's discuss the players. 18, 19 and 20 year-olds are not famously known for working around the clock. And why should they be? This isn't the days of slavery in our country. One thing that makes America great is our ability to work and then be rewarded with leisure time. Why should it be different for these kids? And I remember being that age.... I didn't work around the clock.
Second... what about our coaches? They are adults. Why aren't they working around the clock? Well... I'm pretty sure they put in more than a 40-hour work week. When Bill Self says that he has the best job in America, do you think he is saying that because he never stops working? Do you think he worked so hard to get to the top only so he could work 24/7? Still, I'm betting he puts in a truckload of hours.
It is my theory that the people in here that complained the most about the Stanford game also has committed the most to KU basketball. It seems to be what happened to me. If I hadn't posted 1,350 times (just on this site) over the past season, chances are I would have let it go much sooner after the loss.
Take my advice, all you JOCD fans... eggplants never lie!